Poet of the Day: Reetika Vazirani
By almost every account, Reetika Vazirani was a poet who was just getting started. I still remember where I was on July 17, 2003, the day after she took the life of her son and then herself. I was working an internship at a concrete company in Springfield, Missouri. I read the news. I believe it was a Thursday. They boy’s father had been Yusef Komunyakaa.
To be honest with you, I had never read her work up to that point. Still haven’t read a lot of it. But I understood the suicide. Back then. I probably still remember the day it all happened because of that reason. I can’t believe it has already been seven years.
Two poems I picked for you today by the late Vazirani are “Two Cities” and “Going to See the Taj Mahal,” both viewable below.
Two Cities by Reetika Vazirani
That 4 a.m. I lay
back on the living room
couch, seeing as it was
still night. At 5 a.m.
Elle’s light in Unit B
upstairs came on, and she
sailed down the wooden steps
and drove off to bake bread
until two. Then I thought
of you doing to me
those things you described on
the phone. I in utter
surprise kept asking, Would
you really? Yes, you would.
But you had not phoned me
this morning, though it flew
anyway: I heard you
patiently interrogate.
At first I didn’t know
what to do.
Six years later
this was better for all
the time taken out, gone
were the unimportant
miles between our cities,
even better than on
the phone or in person,
though it was without doubt
only you in your absence.
Then the sun rose, wiping
away this entanglement,
as I shake creases out
of the sheets and fold them
like a note I will send
to tell you how things are
going, pretty much the
same and good on this end.
Going to See the Taj Mahal by Reetika Vazirani
When we set out on the train to Agra
I thought, What an old palace we are going to see,
it’s an old grave.
I was tired when we reached the station and you hired a taxi
to take us to the steps of the Taj Mahal;
you couldn’t even wait until morning,
said it was something to take in by moonlight,
white marble against black sky is a great sight in moonlight
you said
(marble just cleaned for a holiday).
And there beyond our driver’s wheel I saw the domes—
the large dome and the four surrounding domes.
The silhouette stood out so clearly that for a moment
I forgot this fact in the midst of the splendor
(the long stretch of grass leading up to the site):
the Empress Mumtaz, she bore fourteen heirs for Shah Jahan—
absurd to forget Mumtaz at her marble grave,
marble banded with prophecy and verse.
But what did I know of the Empress except this tomb?
So I pictured her this way:
she was not a beauty, nor especially devout
(always slow to cover her head).
On Thursdays when the open market came past the red
stone quarry,
she dressed as her handmaid
and took a poor cloth sack into town
where she bartered for beads women wore on ordinary days;
and secretly with cheap dyes she’d paint herself into the wild
casual beauty of youth
(the kohl inexpertly applied but alluring).
Then she gave her sack away or left it on the road
should someone find it hoarded in her suite—
the Empress buying this five-and-dime garbage!
And she imagined her life without the constant royal curfew.
There were places she couldn’t go—there were even daily
attractions at the well,
attractions too scandalous to list.
If only the Emperor’s architects knew her!—
to free them from the illusions which inspired the tomb,
to free them from the wished-for glamour of a Mumtaz.
(Source: nathanielturner.com)
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